Beautiful and honest story from your heart. My condolences to your husband and your entire family. I understand your sentiment about "inspirational stories" that come off as pedantic and insincere. You mention the power of being present in your life. This is important. For you cannot feel God's presence in your life unless you are present in your own life. Being present means acknowledging emotions that might be difficult. But we are human (and divine) and we must incorporate our shadow, no matter how difficult. I love your sincerity and candor. It will aid you in your journey. Prayers and light to you and yours.